I just want it to end.
Everyone has someone else to keep them company.
So they won’t be that hurt.
Maybe it will be like my way of finally doing something that displeases people. I’ve always been so obsessed with pleasing people. But I can’t please them no matter what I do anymore.
I’m too fat, my skin is bad, I’m useless, jobless, my boyfriend doesn’t confide in me anymore.
It would be a big fat burden off everyone’s back.
The question is how and when.
This
is
me
in all my fat, ugly, lazy glory….
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Please Shelby!
Stop!
After surviving three attempted suicides, and triple by-pass, I am glad to be alive
[hoowever I did flatline on the table for eight minutes during the bypass].
I wish I had had someone to spank some sense into me after the first attempt.
This world would be such a sadder place w/ out your beauty, and your grace.
Go sit on a Hot stove!
LOL
love ya, always,
jon
you are a lot of things ………..great looking…….sweet ……….nice…….but you are a lone way from fat …….and your skin is …wow so great…..and I would miss reading your work and seeing your body
hey shelby ,
well there was some really bad words in that journal ..
!
and they really does look like they came from ur heart ..
but common take it bositively U STILL ALIVE !
i always do that .. when i go through a fuckin bad situation i think that { man the good point is u still alive, u still can do something cool and save ur life }
in easier words = Positive Mind Is Always The Way Out !
u said up ..
fat, ugly, lazy
acctually i dont know u so i cant judge of the third part that is LAZY !!
but the first two UGLY ..!
i think everyone who hv visit ur da account can judge ..
im one of them ..
and let me tell u somethin ..
if u callin ur self fat ?? what the f**k i should call my self , and UGLY .. i can challenge u if u can look more ugly than me ?!!
alwayz remember
ur life is still on
and u still hv someone who loves u ..
M . A . D
_-_-_
- sorry for the long comment ! and good luck
Please stop.
I’ve been enjoying your pictures since the moment I saw them.
You are a stunningly beautiful woman.
There is a sense of elegance in all your photographs. While I’m not sure you’ll believe me when I say it, but you’re absolutely one hundred percent NOT fat.
It would be a sad day if you left. Please don’t.
Please don’t do it. You’re an amazing girl, with a heart of gold, and beauty that most girls couldn’t hold a candle to. I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but please don’t give up. I may not know you, but I still believe in you. If you need someone to talk to, please send me a message, but don’t take it out on yourself.
Please be safe
Shelby, you are an amazing person with Talent that many -and me- are jealous of. you have a body that most would die for, and you have a beautiful personality. you are not even close to being fat, I cant put myself in your situation, but i do know that you seem a strong enough person to get through it alive. Please stick around, the world would be an uglier place without you.
My opinion may not mean much, but in all truthfulness, you are none of those things.
The truth being, Shelby, that you are not pretty.
You are beautiful.
You are not fat. You are far from it.
You are perfection personified. Imperfectly perfect if you will. A paradox, I know, but still, it is the truth.
Your death would be a severe loss to society itself, especially dA, and the world would be a darker place without your radiant beauty lighting up the lives of your admirers, myself included.
I hope you make the correct decision, and continue to brighten our dark days with your stunning features and amazing photography.
Yours truly,
Loki.
Hey hun, having known you a lot longer than I have known a lot of people since 6th grade…lol 5th grade you were too good to know me hahahah. Babe or rather I dare say Charles, You know what I mean when I say that it’s not worth it…look at december 2005 of our lives…trust me it is not. Much love and warmth.
-Jules “Julio”
Shelby –
Listen to the wisdom from some of your fans here. Not to marginalize your problems, but what will ending your life accomplish? Yes, your troubles will be over, but think a little about the impact you’ll have on those who care about you. I’m not talking about the anonymous posters to your blog — I’m referring to your friends and family. Those are the people who will truly miss you.
Oh please you are not fat! Stop thinking you are – buck up and be thankful to be alive! Just try and focus on you and work on living!
Fat does not have any context in that image of you. There was no fat showing there at all. I can’t speak to the rest of your complaints about yourself, but the skin that showed had no flaws, and there was NO fat, so let those two complaints go.